I have entered into a deeper season of waiting which has stretched me in ways I could not have imagined. Most days are hard, some days much harder. I am in pain at times, at times just extremely uncomfortable. I am weak and tired and struggle with my thoughts especially when I am feeling poorly. My mind shifts from hope and thankfulness to utter despair and yes even agony. Most of my prayers are taken directly from the Psalms as I have so little to say in my own heart right now.
I am learning that God's timetable is not mine, that his ways are not my ways, that despite my feelings or confidence (or lack of confidence) HE is faithful and good to me. Yes good to me in the midst of hardship and unknowns. Do we only take the good that comes from his hands or can we bow our hearts and hands and receive the pain and sorrow too? I have learned that its in the dark days, the times of great hardship, that we draw closer to our Savior who has walked where we walk and promises to comfort and guide us.
Praise God that he has not abandoned me and he will be glorified no matter what the outcome of my situation might be. I am so thankful that I am covered in his love and power. I pray that whatever you may be going through that you can sense his love and power in your own life. We have full access to the Father through Jesus Christ and he is waiting for you to cry out to him in your time of need. Reach out to him.
Continue to pray for me and my family. I know SO many of you are and we are so blessed by your faithfulness!
Love to you all,