Dear Family and Friends,
Thank you for the outpouring of love, support, and prayers that we have had from all of you over the last month and a half. I wanted to just let you all know that although my days are up and down, that I am being sustained and cared for in a mighty way. I am surrounded by a core network of family who have tirelessly cared for me, my husband and children. It has been such a blessing to see loved ones pull together to surround me with support.
I am taking one day at a time as I have stepped out in faith, and wait and watch for what the Lord is going to do, or show me which direction to go. This has been extremely difficult as you can imagine. To wait and not run ahead takes such patience and trust. Many mornings I am hopeful and peaceful, yet as the day progresses I begin to despair and as the night comes I am just undone. I am learning that my strength is not strength enough and that my eyes must be full on Christ despite how my emotions might fluctuate. I am also learning how to come before my Father boldly reminding him of the promises he has for his children.
The first question I usually get when talking with people about my situation is how am I doing, how is my pain. I do have pain and discomfort but I am trying to manage that wisely, while also nourishing my body with supplements and IV treatments that help support my immune system. I still have days where eating is hard, but other days when I'm able to eat more. I am learning that I must be gracious with myself and do the little that I can do right in front of me.
Right now the biggest thing I need is your prayers. I recently received a message from a dear friend who said "I was praying for you today, and I had so much hope as I prayed. We pray for you everyday and I always have a great sense of hope for you. You are easy to pray for, in that I am not trying to conjure up a prayer that I don't really believe in." This was such a blessing for me to read as I want all who pray for me to feel that hope that God is working and moving and his love is my shield and he is the victor over my life and this struggle I face daily. I am overwhelmed by the love that Jesus has poured out to me during this time, how he blesses me with his powerful spirit, and I know that he is doing his perfect work through this situation.
Thank you for not giving up and being faithful in prayer for us! Blessings to each one of you.