As our Oncologist showed us the results from my PET scan today I was fascinated by the cross sections I was seeing of my own body. This is the biology geek in me for sure... just amazed at the way the God of all creation has made me and is working in and through me.
I wish that I could say that my PET scan results were clear and that I am totally cancer free by some great miracle but the reality for me tonight as I type this is that the cancer has potentially spread to a lymph node under my arm pit, but also to the opposite side of where my tumor is down in a lymph node near my lung. To be absolutely positive this is cancer I will need to go in and have a bronchoscopy biopsy done of this lymph node. Now all along so far on this journey the Lord has brought specific doctors into our path that have been a comfort and joy to be with. In this situation it is no different. The surgeon who will be doing the biopsy "happens" to live two doors down from us and his wife stopped by tonight with a card and flowers without knowing her husband would be helping me next week. He is a strong Christian and is very good at what he does so yet again we feel peace and are so thankful for being directed in this way.
My prognosis right now seems bleak stage 3 most likely stage 4 cancer but the other reality for me tonight is that I am being held by the hands of an Almighty God who is working his perfect will in my life and I have peace and joy that can not be explained. I have not been abandoned or forsaken I have been loved on and cherished in SO many beautiful ways and will continue to be upheld and cared for. I know I don't have to say this but please continue to pray. Pray for patience as we wait for testing and results, pray for guidance in how we move forward with treatment, pray for my parents who will be coming down for a week, pray for my children and husband as we navigate this new norm, pray that God continue to be glorified through all this and that my biopsy would go smoothly and this cancer would be banished from my body.
We love you all and can't thank you enough for your support in all the different ways you have been supporting us!!
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13